feeLing so mOody theSe few days..

duNno y..

maybe i betul2 ambiL hati wif wat he sAy..

eveN he say he juz ask n never thinking tO make it reality..

aM i the oNe who thInking too mucH???

hurm..

for the 1st time in my Life..

sum1 tat can be caLLed stranger knws wat in my heart..

dunno y i senang share my feeLings wif him..

in fact..

we juz knw in faCebook..

n he far frm here..

saRawak..

everytime chat wif him i feel so reLief..

but tat doesnt mean i in Love wif him..

i juz anggap he Like my bro..

i do got a reaL bro..

but his thinking is not same wif me..

tis person tat i juz got to knw is satu kepaLa wif me..

i wish aLL person tat i Love in my Life can be Like him..

knw about wat i feeL..

n do care about me..

OUT OF CONTROL

now at home wif my mum n son. .

juz 3 of us. .

wish nothing bad happen to us. .

my hubby at sukau n sleep at thre. .

dunno why. .

lately i see he more like sleep at there than his own home. .

or mybe it juz my feeling. .

u knw la pregnant woman. .

but a few days ago he did ask me sumthng tat make me feel uneasy. .

he did ask me about if he wan to getting married again. .

i give him my permission o not. .

coz if he wan to take another wife. .

need me to sign the paper. .

when he ask like tat. .

make me thinking about tat until now. .

he do say to me tat he juz ask n not mention it. .

but who knws. .

men cnt be trusted now. .

hmmm. .suddenly got headache. .argh!!!!

dunno wats going on wif my life now. .

everything miserable. .

oh GOD. .

please HELP ME!!!

~congrats~

~tue~6.41 a.m.~~~

congrats to my dearest sis coz oredy give birth on 18.12.2010. .

hurmmm. .

she become a mum oredy. .

n me??

still not give birth yet. .

dunno when. .

nevermind. .

as long as me n my baby will be save. .

a lil' bit regrets rite now. .

coz i didn finish take my spm paper. .

there was 3 more paper left n i didn go oredy. .:(

it is because my kaki n betis become swallow. .

n make me susah mau jalan to yake my paper. .

its ok. .

can take it next time. .

need to take a shower now. .

coz need to see my bidan later. .

~~haPPy~~^-^. .

so happy right now. .can't wait for my son tomorrow. .hehe

~~~misssed him so much. .in these happy condition,still got a little bit worried. .until now my hubby still not back home from sukau..~~~

hmmmmm. .i wonder where he is right now. .

~sO moOdY~

so moody right now. .not alone but still feel lonely and dunno why i feel like that. .huh. .now at home with my mum. .my hubby??he just now go out to indah to celebrate his cousin birthday. .see that picture??you guys only can see his smiling face 100% if when with his friends. .hurm. .maybe its just my feeling. .u know when pregnant. .so many bad thinking come just to make u stress. .but i can't stop from thinking that he seem more happy be with his friends than me. .hurm. .such a moody story. .just now i called my bro in law. .he sad my son got fever. .maybe because of the weather or maybe he do thinking about me because this is his 1st time to far from me. .hope he will get better soon. .this wednesday i got paper perdagangan. .wish me luck k!!

my bad day. .

its been a week since my husband family took my son for a vacation. .damn miss my son so much. .all this while,we never been far like this. .a few days ago,i add my very best and trusted friend at facebook. .then we had a talk about my life. .and so many things. .i feel so relief when she said there is no wrong for my husband family took my son go to holiday. .as long as they know whats right and wrong for my son. .

~~~my friends understand about it. .but why my mother don't??. .she keep saying about it everytime she come to see me. .

hurm. .last night i was all alone at home. .i lie to my mum that my husband at here. .i know she will be angry if know the truth. .so dissappointed with my husband. .he know that i will be alone at home. .i cry all night because of his act to me. ..~~~until now he didn't back home. .maybe still at sukau and i dunno what he do at there. .his father said he don't have to sleep at there. .but i dunno why he want to sleep there. .hurm. .thinking of it will only make me stress. .

stop thinking and start think about my son. .damn miss him. .